It’s 11:28pm on Leap Day, Feb. 29! Since I committed to posting at least once every month, and it seems I only have 30 minutes left of this one, I am posting. Got lucky with that extra day!
The truth is, I have no idea what to really say. Because my head is once again swimming. Because it’s almost midnight and my day started at 7am and hasn’t stopped since. There’s just so much work to be done.
It is wonderful, actually. I mean it really is. Life is full and things are in motion and I am grateful for an abundance of seeds in the field and the energy to till it. The only thing is, I can’t seem to think.
It’s why I haven’t been writing much these days. It’s not an excuse, but it’s a reason. I am in the midst of making a very big change in my life; one of the biggest changes one can undergo. It is terrifying and exciting and confusing and time consuming and I can’t really talk about it. In addition to that, I am growing a new business that I started quite (happily) by accident this past Fall and have come to absolutely love more than I ever knew I would. So there’s that.
I am also narrating books, including the one I just stopped narrating in order to dash out this post. And I’m doing voiceover, reconnecting with my passion for that because I thankfully realized it had become somewhat pedestrian-feeling to me, and it is truly anything but! I am privileged to do the work that I do and I never want to lose sight of that.
Just today, going to an audition at an outside casting place, I got that feeling that I haven’t had in so long. That “Wow, this is my life!” feeling. I actually felt it the day before, too, when I was driving to Bed Bath and Beyond and this very familiar voice was coming out of the radio. It took me a moment to realize “Hey, that’s ME!” and “Wow, I guess they really are playing it…!” Followed by, “Weird, I sound super dark, is that what they wanted? Why do I sound so edgy? Did they like it like that? I could have brightened it up. Well, I guess they had to have liked it, otherwise it wouldn’t be on the air…” But I digress. I decided to drop the neuroses and enjoy the moment. It’s so important to.
Well look at that. It’s now 11:50pm and I need to wrap this thing up and get it published while I’m still in this month! So I’ll stop here, rambling imperfection intact.
And you know what? I realize it doesn’t take that much. It really doesn’t. If you let go of being perfect and just tell the truth. It actually feels pretty damn good. Note to self: Do this more. Take the time. Slow down a minute. Connect. Share.
Happy Leap Year, y’all!